The kids are heading back to school in 3 days. And I’ve
decided it’s time for some changes in my life, too. The first one I’m going to
make is to establish a regular exercise routine that pushes me (in many ways).
This terrifies me for a few reasons:
1)
I have to get up early. I’ve rearranged my
schedule so many times I nearly went cross-eyed. But 6 am is the only time I
can reasonably and regularly exercise for an hour without many, many issues arising
which would de-rail my efforts to be consistent. That means I have to get out
of bed at 5:30. Ugh.
2)
I’ve never taken the classes offered at 6 am.
That means I don’t know what to expect or how to navigate it. That terrifies me—I
can’t plan for what I don’t know and that leaves me feeling unprepared and vulnerable.
3)
I have to actually exercise. . .in front of
other people. . . who will then see how out of shape I am. . . and how sweaty I
get. . . in public.
4)
I am going to have to admit to myself how out of
shape I let myself get. Grrr.
So, in order to combat these fears I am doing the following:
1)
Asking for help from my friends: If you are
willing to meet me for one (or more) 6 am classes during the week—even if it’s
just for a week or two—to show me the ropes, smile at me, and expect me to be
there, I would be forever grateful.
2)
Promising in public to take a selfie after every
class—I’m going to prove to myself that I can love the body I have, sweaty red
face and all. Plus, it’s a way for me to be proud of myself for the effort I’m
making to be healthy.
